Rofl.

So... Like I saw my ex-crush's photo a few minutes ago and I can't stop laughing. I mean, he used to look great and all but now.. PUBERTY. It can either make or break you. Hahahahahahaha. And I'm just like WTF, WHEN DID I EVER LIKE YOU? Denying it to the maxxxx. XDDD

Nostalgic

JJ seriously resembles TH (or is it the other way around? lol) in this photo.

I HATE IT, GDI ;_; Here i am, trying my best to forget and i see this. Gah.

hallo thaar.

late nights. drunk nights. fun nights.

bye bye vacation. hello shitschoolworks.

i will surely miss the holidays.

Define imba..

This post is late. The party happened two days ago. I suck, i know. I was busy partaaay-ing and had no time to blog about the imba-est partaaay of 2009. Enough with the shit, here comes the real thing.

I was sleepless and restless. Too excited for the 29th. It's not my first time to go in a noraebang but I feel so jumpy. Maybe it's because of the people i'm going with? Yes, that's probably it. I love them so much that I had to make an "Imbatasyon" for this party. Did you get it? IMBA-tasyon. Okay, nevermind. Haha. We don't want gremlins and other attention whores in our year ender party, do we? Ayaw na namin ma-imbyerna, please lang. So basically, it was a no invite, no party event. Yayy me for being such a bitch! (:

OKAY. The d-day. December 29, 2009. It was also Sakuya's birthday. I hope she enjoyed her very special day. So back to the topic. I got up at 7 in the morning, left the house by 10am and met up with Justine and Bonna. Then we rode a bus to Ayala. Woo. Road trip.

When we got to SM Makati, we went directly to the grocery to buy snacks for the other peeps. We bought chips and stik-o. We had a limited budget, sorry. Haha. After buying snacks, we rode a cab to Joosarang. Yayy! We got inside and saw that they were all singing already. They're so mean! Starting without us. Just kidding. Haha^^

We sang songs, danced, laughed and did all the possible things you can do inside a noraebang. Just go imagine it. I'm too lazy to type in detail. Screw me. Btw, Patrick and Kath got married! Though it was a shot-gun wedding i'm very happy for them. Goodluck with the baby! Lol much.

This is what we looked like after singing. TRASHYYYYYY! ((:

We finished at 4 pm and went to Kkachi Bunsik (a korean resto beside JS). Partaaay peeps can't live on partaaay alone. We need food. Damn it. I was super hungry that time. We were all carried away by the karaoke that we lost track of time. So we got in the resto and practically filled the whole place. It was so small anyway. We had to eat at different tables because we were too many. I sat with Karen, Paula and Chezka. Team Imbyerna. Haha!

After dinner, we went back to Glorietta and then went our separate ways.

Imba. I really enjoyed this day. You guys have made such an impact in my life this 2009 and i don't know what would happen to me if i have never met all of you. Shizz. Drama. Haha. Before this year ends, i would like to thank all of you for the friendship and everything you have given me. And if there was a time when i may have offended you, i am terribly sorry. I know i can be a pain in the ass at times. More partaaays next year please. 2010 -- we shall rock another year.

I don't need to enumerate all of your names. You guys know who you are and i love you all so much. So much that i would go gremlin killing for all of you.

xoxo.

teach me to care a little less about you

And i was afraid we'll be back at square one...

Here i am again, trying to put into words these "things" i feel. It's too much to put into writing. When did this start anyway? And what am i feeling? What is this? I really need to know. I have to know.

From time to time, i'd be happy & blissful from thinking about you. Then at one point, my smile fades. I get upset. The reason? I don't even know. I like it when I see you, I really do. Your smile is absolute heaven for me. When you greet me, deep inside, i die.

Infatuation? Maybe. Love? I have no idea.

It's so freaking obvious that i like you. Can't you notice? I get shy when you're around. I tend to hide and run. I'm afraid that you'll see this weak side of me. This shitty part of me. I don't want to falter because you always catch me off-guard. I can't bear to watch my dignity be shred in front of you. I don't want to look bad in front of you. I only want to be the best girl in your eyes. 나 너 좋아해...

What the fucking hell? I'm so infatuated with you that it's driving me insane. Anything and everything that has got to do with you makes my heart skip a beat. Why do i even like you? Aish.

Then I realize that you & i are impossible to happen. And that brings me down. I hate it when you're with some other girl. But i don't have any right to be jealous so screw my heart. I hate it when I can't see you. But when you're around, i run away. Talk about stupid and crazy. I hate it when you don't smile at me, say hi to me, wave at me. I'm in desperate need of your attention. Boy, you have driven me cuckoo crazy.

I blog about you. I want you. I think of you. I need you. I dream of you. I like you. What else is there to do with YOU?

I hate to admit it but yes, we're back at square one...
And maybe, i'll just let it be this way -- always and forever at square one.